Here's an interesting idea. It has some wonderful benefits.
Pay your own way.
You won't owe anyone anything. Anything!
You won't be compromised by the fear of disappointing people. Other people's expectations will simply be their expections, not your obligation.
You can make your own decision: where to go, what to do, where to stay, what to eat, when to leave, and when to remain home. You can say no without feeling guilty and yes without feeling selfish.
If you cannot afford the things you want to do without someone else's paying for you, let it be a reminder of your limitations, an encouragement to expand. Reality is creativity's best inspiration.
If you want to do something that badly, you'll do it. You'll make a plan or figure out a way. You can do it if you really want to.
And if you can't figure out a way to do what you want right now, then you have an even more valuable lesson to learn. Maybe you can rethink how you live your life, what makes you happy, what you can and can't afford. Maybe our work needs to be more fulfilling so you don't feel you need to reward yourself for suffering at a boring job.
A happy life is scaled to your reality, not your fantasy.
A wealthy person can have anything he wants-but not everything.
A rich person needs nothing.
A poor person feels in debt to the entire world.